Crafty?

Ugh.  My blog got too deep again. 

Here's the rub: My son, Graham, died.  I am overwhelmingly sad.  Jesus died on the cross for my sins, rose again, and is now seated at the right hand of God in Heaven.  I am thankful, grateful, joyful, and OK.

Does that make sense?  I think the byline on Angie Smith's book "I Will Carry You" says it best: The Sacred Dance of Grief and Joy.  Because that is now what my life has become.  It is a constant rollercoaster of emotions battling inside me.  I am grieving the loss of my son, while at the same time, seeing that there is oh so much to be thankful for here on this earth.  AND, more than that, the promise of Heaven is real.

I was telling my friend, Sara, the other day about how I sometimes feel guilty when I do something fun.  Or laugh at a joke.  I think it makes more sense when I can explain it to you in person (with my awesome voice inflections), but, in the midst of laughing or smiling I want to say, "But wait!  I'm still really sad about losing Graham!  I'm not OK - I am hurting.  BUT - that was funny!"

So, in an effort to tip the "scales" back the other direction, I wanted to tell/show you about my (possible) new hobby.  I've been looking on Pinterest at craft ideas a lot lately.  After a family trip to both Michaels and Hobby Lobby on Saturday I decided I wanted to make a fall wreath for our front door.

I started playing around with ways to make different kinds of flowers and rosettes out of felt, material, burlap and buttons.  This was on Saturday night.

On Sunday afternoon, while Parker was "napping," Matt helped me cover a D in burlap.  He also cut out circles of material so that I could make lots of different flowers.

The more I got going, the more comfortable I felt making it up as I went along.  I made all kinds of flowers, and then stuck them all on this wreath.

The thing is - the more I started working on it, the more I realized how fun it was!  And I kept on coming up with different ideas, but I could only do so much on one wreath.  Let's not get too crazy, right?  And since then, I've continued to think about what other things I could do and make.  Headbands, Clips, Frames, etc.

So, maybe I am "craftier" (if that's not a word, keep it to yourself) than I originally thought.  I have all these ideas floating and I'm ready to keep on working.  So if you want something - let me know!